I thought that 2014 would be a great Year for me.
But it wasn’t. It brought great loneliness, Desire, hatred and self-loathing!
Why don’t I have enough money to travel?
Why are we having Debts now?
Is it my fault?
Why is there still no Ties in my family?
Why can’t I connect with my brother?
Why am I still afraid of my father?
Why am I so useless?
Why am I so stupid?
All this thoughts kept bugging me all day, each day, everyday.
It’s scary. I’m scared!
That if I can’t resolve this feeling, I may lose myself.
I may become crazy
That is why , in what little sanity I have, I cling to it.
I grasp it, standing between the Border of insanity and sanity.
Which is it? [Doche?]
I want to Change.
I want to become Stronger.
I want to express my emotions more.
That is why, the Days I have live. The days I have survived upto now.
I want to treasure them.
I want to make it better.
But I’m scared.
Someone Help me!