New Hair Cut

Today.

I just did something crazy.
You know the ‘Jurassic World’ movie.
That claire girl with her bob cut hairstyle.

Well, thats how my hair turned out.

Imagine what you envisioned yourself to look like and how it really turned out– are 2 completely different things, i’m too stubborn to admit.

But NOW- I’m still not admitting it.

Well.
This is how my hair turned out.
This is after my hair got a hair blow-out…figuratively.

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The real Challenge is— how it will turn out – the next day.
When i washed my hair and my curls started to form.

Stay tune 😉

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The Life on Top

I seen it before, but only a few times.
I could even count them with the palm of my hand.

THE VIEW ON TOP.
That’s what they call it. The magestic view that spread out as far as you can see, reaching up to the horizon.

Of course, i know that. Been there , done that.

Still, seeing it once more, amidst the despair and nightmare i’ve witnessed. The reality and its people i bared my fangs with.
It made me forget them, just like that, awe struck and excited. My blood rushing to my brain, my heart pounding.
It was a moment that took my breath away.

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This picture i’ve captured could only portray half of the sight i’ve witness.
My phone could not capture such majestic. Man-made it was but it was beautiful.

You wouldn’t see the rotten core the citu and its people have. Shrouded and masked in darkness and illuminated by the lights.
How marvelous it was.
It made me sneeze 🙂

I want to come back here again.
Next time, i’ll post a pic about sundown.
Just sit back and wait

Household disease

I know realize why my sickness back in college doesn’t seem to stop
That’s because. I don’t have enough sleep.
I can’t become a vampire so my body, wether I like it or not, have to shut down and recharge eventually
8hours of sleep ideally
Banana after meal
And taking vitamins and minerals is necessary for my body.

How do i know this. I read books and listen to discussions
That’s why I know all of this

MY STYLE,MY RULES

When I go shopping i don’t bring an ounce of money on me.
Just myself.
Its one of the reason that makes me save money wisely, and spend it wisely.
When i go shopping, i don’t look at the brand. I look at the comfort of the clothes, shoes and weither the bags and accessories suit my clothes, in other words I’m not one to call a fashionista but a comfortunista….hahha. it sound weird but that’s me.
( my fashionista-psychologist friend calls me a ‘modern minimalist’) and maybe I am

When people point fingers and say I’m rich just because of the clothes I’m wearing when i do ‘window shopping’, you’re terribly mistaken Senorita’s, senor’s. 
Try taking a peek in my wallet and you’ll find out i just have money enough for food and parking tickets. HAH!

Now let me tell you my open secret.
I don’t carry money the day before i decide to buy anything. That’s because I want to avoid spending on unnecessary things.
Its like a disease. I have an urge to spend on impulse. Impulse buying and i have a tendency to hoard stuff with an excuse that i wanted it so badly, when in reality i don’t actually need it and it would just end up in my drawers and cabinets. A total waste of expense.

That’s why to fight off this urge. I don’t bring big bills on me and just small tokens for survival. So whenever the impulse to buy arose, when i peek into my wallet and see how little i have, it makes me ponder wether i want it or not.
And then think more realistically weither i need it to the point of dying for it or not.
Seasons past, fashion changes and there will be new stuff arriving. Its not worth to spend now, but its better to invest in the future.
That’s why i end up buying classical, simple pieces that could be mismatch with almost everything——in my wardrobe.

New Year 2015

I thought that 2014 would be a great Year for me.

But it wasn’t. It brought great loneliness, Desire, hatred and self-loathing!

Why don’t I have enough money to travel?

Why are we having Debts now?

Is it my fault?

Why is there still no Ties in my family?

Why can’t I connect with my brother?

Why am I still afraid of my father?

Why am I so useless?

Why am I so stupid?

All this thoughts kept bugging me all day, each day, everyday.

It’s scary. I’m scared!

That if I can’t resolve this feeling, I may lose myself.

I may become crazy

That is why , in what little sanity I have, I cling to it.

I grasp it, standing between the Border of insanity and sanity.

Which is it? [Doche?]

I want to Change.

I want to become Stronger.

Stronger

Courageous

I want to express my emotions more.

That is why, the Days I have live. The days I have survived upto now.

I want to treasure them.

I want to make it better.

But I’m scared.

It’s scary

Someone Help me!